In all honesty:
  I truly miss how things used to be, when all of my friends got along. When we were together everyday before we would decide this is to much and go months with-out talking to each other. When we were able to hang-out with-out worrying about work, or a ride, or weather we were together all the time. When I felt as though your family was my family, until you stop talking that is when you are able to see how much it isn’t that way at all. 
  Honestly, it is bringing me to tears to know that I wasn’t there to show you support when you had your FIRST little angel, to celebrate with you when you found the love of your life, to comfort you when you lost loved one. The thing I miss when we are being stubborn as hell makes me feel as though I am a terrible person. 
  Honestly, and for the first time I want to publicly announce that I AM SORRY THAT I MISS IT ALL, SORRY I DIDN’T TRY HARDER, AND SORRY I CAN’T FIX ANYTHING. I’M SORRY THAT I CAN’T WORK ON ANYTHING BECAUSE IT WILL CAUSE MORE PROBLEMS</3

Honesty, apologetic, and complete and utter sadness</3